I’m not sure where the past twenty four months have gone but they are, as they say, in the books. And with much of the last 14+ months filled with uncertainty, anxiety and fear as we all navigate this global pandemic, these last two years have also been a most incredible journey of community, friendship, support and togetherness, even when 6’ apart.
This feeling of shame is something I have been working with for as long as I can remember. I don’t know how it came to be but it’s there and it has grown roots. When shame rears its ugly head, I eventually find the will to relentlessly blaze my way through, even if it is only a spot of light in the darkness.
Opportunity exists in all of life’s experiences. If this pandemic has taught me anything, it has taught me about how much I rely on and need human contact. It has taught me how much I thrive on connecting and working with people, not screens. And more than that, I’m realizing how important it is that I regularly and genuinely connect with the people and places that fill me up.
Complacency is a crutch. It’s my way of hiding or avoiding that which I know is best for me. I know when I get complacent I get this F*CK IT attitude that washes over me and quickly start sinking into the muck of unhealthy gratifications grasping for quick ‘fixes’ and emotional comfort. And then, like a hamster, I just keep running around and around the ‘good enough’ wheel until I reach my limit.
I study Ayurveda because I feel it is a comprehensive system of communication that breaks down and simplifies the patterns of psychological habit, relational responsibility, emotional conditioning, kinetic action, dietary necessity and spiritual discernment all based on the inherent qualities, and more importantly rules, of nature.
As much as it serves us to hibernate during the winter months cuddled up under cozy blankets nestled beside a glowing fire, to remain this way, unchanged, as the world around us changes, can cause ill effects on our physical, mental and emotional wellbeing. Ayurvedically speaking, late winter through spring, Mother Nature depending, is the time of year where Kapha dosha is naturally increased.
I’m the kind of person that when life throws its curve balls, I need a kickstart to re-inject energy and life into my actions towards my goals. I need an accountability partner. Someone who is not only there for me, but who equally expects and deserves my energy and consistency to show up for them. Having someone expecting me to be there for them literally forces me to show up. In showing up, the work gets done.
...and in the sanctuary of the woods, took to pondering the purpose behind my business. Why did I decide to open another yoga studio? And what are the core values that I believe are the root of my personal practices which ultimately nourish the foundation of my business?
It is said that you manifest in the physical form to fulfill a life’s purpose. The Chopra Center states that, “When you live in harmonious flow of dharma, the entire field of pure potential opens to you. You’re able to create as much happiness and wealth as you want because you’re aligned with the domain of spirit, the unlimited source of all manifestation.”
Fear is like a cloud that hides the sun. Even though I know the sun is up, sometimes clouds shroud it causing a darkened, diluted, or and depending on how thick that cloud is, a lustreless sunlight. But the intensity and brightness of the sun itself hasn’t changed at all - I’m just not able to see it in all its brilliance from where I am standing.
in the 90 minutes session I had with the physiotherapist, I learned more about my undercarriage than I have in 43 years of experience. She took such time and care in explaining how and why bladder leakage occurs. It was as much a health counselling session as it was an anatomy lesson.
If I have learned anything in these last two decades it is that teachers come in all shapes and sizes, and almost always when you least expect them but always when you need them most. And each of them, with their own unique gift of realization as to the message of this timeworn practice, whether they realize it or not. All of them have helped shape my understanding and application of this rich concept that is to be in and of the Self.
“…researchers have discovered that sitting time itself is a risk factor for cardiovascular disease, even in those who exercise regularly. Regular bouts of exercise do not undo the effect that sitting has on the body. The link between sitting and cardiovascular disease has to do the with physics of how your blood flows through your arteries..."
When I was in high school my English teacher noted in one of my report cards that writing was not my strong suit. I remember hearing him and my mother talk during a PT meeting where he stated, “give Michelle a subject to talk about and she could talk for hours. But when it comes to writing, she struggles with that.”
Standing in the bathroom one night this week as I readied myself for bed, I stopped, toothbrush hanging out of my mouth, as I caught my reflection in the mirror. I honestly couldn’t believe what stared back at me. Encircled in dark and heavy shadows, a pair of exhausted, sore, and sunken but swollen eyes started right back at me. They watered under in the soft bathroom lights and struggled to hold focus.